Being with Kai totally goes against what I told myself. About wanting to know someone for a few years to build that strong foundation, about having this huge common ground of video games and good academics and being nerdy in general. He's not the dream ideal person that I wrote about while ago, and doesn't have most of the characteristics in that 'what attracts me in a guy' post that I deleted. He's only academically smart if he finds a reason to put effort into it. He's only slightly taller than I am and doesn't have a "good sense" of style. In fact, he doesn't even care how he looks like half the time (except for his hair). He doesn't play video games; he used to, but he knows that he gets addicted to them way too easily so he stopped. His hands are far from soft - they're callus-y and they've suffered from so many burns and cuts and boxing injuries. If anything, he's the complete opposite of what I expected, and I still really like him for who he is.

I have a really good feeling about him, though. The traits that I listed in the past were mostly skin-deep and have nothing to do with what you can judge from appearance and habits. We may not have had the time to build a strong foundation at first, but that doesn't mean we're not building it now.

But I have 2 finals tomorrow (aka later on today)... I should be studying instead of thinking of this stuff. I'm craving for something chocolatey too.

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