Speaking of my desktop, here's how it's been looking like for god knows how long.

I really like the background, but it kind of makes my eyes hurt. A lot. It'd be pretty nice for a poster. Poor Pluto, though. Don't worry, I'm not a planet either. :(

I'm pretty picky with the backgrounds I choose. I really like those abstract/C4D-ish kind of backgrounds but I tend to stay away from them, because they remind me of this guy that I used to like that made abstract-ish signatures. We used to be really good friends too, but he got into a car accident one day and I didn't hear from him for around two weeks or so... His leg got pretty mangled and his back/neck was constantly hurting and he had to rest often, and then we just stopped talking altogether for some reason. At least he's still alive, right?

I never really talk about my love life often, to anyone. I never tell anyone this (I think only Michelle and maybe Teresa knew), but Quinton was the first boyfriend I ever had - before the other dude that I kind of rambled about before deleting the post a few hours later. So why am I doing this now? .... I think I was his first girlfriend, too. I remember that our other good friend Ryan had to be there with him when he asked me out because he was so nervous. I mean we only "went out" for a week or so before I found out that he had to move to the other side of the country. We were really shy with each other when we started going out. Actually, we never did couple-y things like kiss or hold hands or cuddle. We certainly weren't in love with each other. But we still really liked each other a lot. I guess we were in our really awkward stages because we were both freshmen in high school at the time... I think? And he was a lot more outgoing than I was, he was like that kid that everyone liked that had a bunch of friends, and I was just... really weird and awkwardly loud. I used to wear a lot of dorky t-shirts with video game references on them and baggy jeans haha... Kind of made me look like a hobo. At least I had a generic Jansport backpack and not something weird to further accent my weirdness. I remember I once wore a vivid green t-shirt with a thinnish pale pink hoodie underneath and stuck reinforcements on my face, and now that I look back to it... what the hell was I thinking??? I can't really believe that Quinton actually liked someone like the "past" me.

But yeah, I've totally lost contact with Quinton and Ryan as well. I never found out what Ryan's last name was even though we were really good friends for a while wtf? I still have Quinton's aim and I can always add him on Facebook and stuff, but... yo, I think it'd be awkward to try to talk to him again after we haven't talked for... a good 3 or 4 years now?

Mmmm, I kind of miss getting hugs from people I like. I haven't had that feeling in a while. Like when someone you like gives you a big hug and you hug them back and get butterflies fucking huge pterodactyls in your stomach. I mean, I like liked Zeren but we were kinda on the "just-awkward-friends" zone that may include smiles and looking at each other from across the room and accidental arm and/or hand brushing but not hugs. ANYWAY I think I don't really like like him anymore, I still kinda get a little excited when I get to talk to him but after that it's just kind of "meh, ok."

....Anyway I think that's enough rambling for now. I'll be surprised if anyone actually reads through this wall of text.